if i could I would for others illuminate what i have found in the world. because I came from a place of deep cynicism about institutions and traditional structures and values, I repudiated, rejected, discredited nearly EVERYTHING. So focused was I on a narrow stretch where I thought truth would be, that I ignored the world, shuttered myself away. I don’t want to linger any longer on this mistake–it’s too unfortunate, it’s passed, and my mind is too easily calibrated for depression.
but if i could I would show others why things I thought were dead ends turned out to be where life was.